SIGH NO MORE

I believe that life is a matter of choices.

 Our choices define who we are.

Starting from the seconds we open our eyes early in the morning, unconsciously, we begin our life with choices; with which foot should I step on the floor? What should I have for breakfast this morning? Which outfits should I wear today, blah blah blah..

And it is therefore, I try so hard to make no bad choices in my life. It is not all because of that I might get bad consequences out of those choices, but it is also because I have always been taught to be responsible over all of the steps I take. 

I am well aware that my life and my entire family’s life are entangled into a tousled bond so that any of bad choices I take will mean bad consequences for them. And for that reason, rather than letting them down, I will swallow this alone. 

I’ll stand my effing job for you, guys Y__Y I’ll go nowhere. Even if I have to write tons of craps about things I hate, I will go no where... *before I come across to anything better.

sigh no more_Mumford&Sons 

Money Talking

my bloody working area..

 

Making Money VS Mencari Uang (Looking for Money)

In Indonesian culture, when we talk about the way we earn money, we say it as mencari uang or looking for money while in some other countries it is said as making money.

So, with this expression comes my wistful thinking; “what happen to people who fail to find the money? Will they drawn to desperation or they keep on pursuing their passion to succeed?”

In some other countries, as people work to make money, I perceive that their efforts and performances in their work will be based on the passion of achieving the money as much as they want. There will be no disappointment if they can not make money as they will reflect on the effort that they do.  

Meanwhile, in Indonesia, as people work to find money *which is assumed that the money is already own by them*, thus, they will work as they like. And somehow, they will feel bad when they can not get the money *again, it is based on the consideration that it is their money that they looking for.

Such concept is entirely misleading.

Me myself used to state that I work to look for money, well, this actually is not a big problem. But when I say it many times, it just like a mantra that somewhat give influence to my working attitude. I work as if I already own the reward that I will get and for that reason, I don’t take my job seriously. 

So, this is what I learned; I will stop to think that I work to look for money, but instead, I will work to make money. And most importantly, I’ll work on things that I passionate about.

A Letter to Ben

Yes, Mr! I'm talking to YOU!!

Mode: Self-Contemplating

Theme: Death Cab for Cutie-You Remind Me of Home

Dear Mr. Gibbard,

There’s something about this song. 

The lyric is sarcastic!!

In some way, the lyrics picture my life so honestly and clearly. I’m shocked with what I heard when I first listened to this song. *Ugh! I hate Ben Gibbard and his talent to crack people’s darkest side. 

So, this is my defense over that lyric you made so geniusly: life is hard, dude!

And somehow, this hardship makes me believe that I am nothing. 

I’m just sitting and waiting for the big things to happen in my life without I’m willing to struggle on it. Yeah, I know.. It’s just impossible.

But there are times in our life that we’re more attuned to the ways we aren’t qualified than to the ways that we are. We need someone to validate our quality, and this is actually the loss of human beings as social animal. We can not live alone without others’ recognition. You see how today’s technology advancement turn us to be? With the massive invention on social network people think that they get more connected with others but in fact they just set the barrier wider than ever.

OK, here’s the thing..

I’ve decided to stop waiting for others to discover my potential. Couple days ago I step my toe on the pool of adventure in looking for a new job, and the tiny prospect of getting that job alone is already chilled me up. However, I’d be still positive. Just like my mom always said; if you want something, you have to be persistent in pursuing it.

And this is what I’m doing now. I’m taking my move. I’ll take any risks offered ahead. I’ll be an arrogant idiot and get a thick skin as you know when we take the risk; it’s not always a standing ovation that we get. The chance of people throwing tomatoes will also be there.

So, Mr. Gibbard, listen this carefully; I WILL WASTE MY TIME NO MORE!! I've made my pact, and continue to make things on my list to happen *cross ur finger on me guys YY

Yours truly,

Ida Nurcahyani.

ACCIO HARRY POTTER

Hell yeah, everyone is clamoring on the premier of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows since yesterday and I was like "OK, you all go on talking about that rubbish. I'm a sensible person that has so many thing to do, I have a lot of work to do other than just talking about that movie and blah..blah..blahh.."

But, well, yeah, actually i don't have so much to do. I made it sound like my work is too demanding, but in fact, I still have a lot of time after work.  So, on Friday, when I did not have anything to do after working, I was like hitting on my facebook and taking couple of tests. And these are the results of some of the tests that I took on that bloody day:

Which language best suits you?

ME got German.

A harsh and angular language, you are a strong but vulnerable person

(Well, this one is much less true. I always act like I can do anything but in my loneliness, I can be as fragile as a vase)

How old are you inside?

ME got 20.

Your pretty young and you are active and married

(Yipppiyeee!! Yes, I'm in my twenties, No, I'm not married, YET YY)

Which Big Bang Theory Character are you?

ME got Leonard.

While you can't have a cheeseburger without farting, have terrible eyesight and are nearly a dwarf, you're probably the most normal of all the guys. You're generally a loyal friend, who's most down to earth about collecting geeky toys and you deal with Sheldon's quirks ...

(terrible eyesight: CHECK! nearly a dwarf: CHECK! a loyal friend: CHECK!)

Ohhhh, the truth is, I really wanna see the Deathly Hollows. Pleassseee, pleassseee, anyone tak me!!!

HAPPY IED MUBARAK!!

Hi eveyone. Happy Ied Mubarak, for those who are celebrating the day. These are my captures during the moment. Please enjoy. 

 1. This one only can be found in INDONESIA; where you can always find merry even in a very sacred pray, bu-wa-ha-ha-hhahhh... 

 2. This is the way we have our barbeque. We literally have a backyard party. I intend to show the process here, can you guys see it?

 3. This one is also the urgently-made-barbeque set. I love the flaming fire capture..

 4. This is the "hewan qurban". Look at his eyes, the way he gave that look.. ohhh, you're just too yummy to be ignored. May you rest in peace, now T.T

 5. This is how we turn that sweet eyed cow to the yummy SATE, hehehe...

 6. This is the solemn of our pray. Yes, we do the pray on the vast town square. The white clothes that we wear are called "mukena".

Bat For Lashes - Daniel - Lollapalooza 2009

Jónsi - Live at Bethnal Green (with Nico Muhly) (Part 1)

Jonsi - Sticks & Stones - live Wiltern, October 17, 2010

mew - She Spider - LIVE in south korea

Caffeine Effect

What is it about a cup of coffee and me? I wonder...


Based on what I've heard, the caffeine content in coffee drink has a stimulating effect on humans. But when this human is ME, the case is different. It is just not only stimulating, but every time I drink coffee, I become wild. I mean, in a wild sense; it turns me to be wild. Yes, it is true. I will go crazy just like pop corn's bursting in the oven. Like a small monkey astray on a highway. (Yeah, I know the metaphor is sounded crazy; I'm under caffeine now. BLAME IT ALL TO CAFFEINE!!)


The caffeine effect on me is just super! I can accelerate my typing speed. My mind will be blasted with random idea that often is hard to be perceived. In short, I will get overwhelmed. My work will be a mess, but somehow my heart will be filled with strange content.


I know I cannot tolerate coffee, but still, due to my wonderful job, recently I find myself get addicted.Darn it! I'm not caffeine virgin anymorrreee T__T"


So, this is how I usually make my demon-ish cup of coffee:

 one devilish of empty cup

 fill it with a spoon of instant coffee powder, my favorite is moccha

pour it with hot water, and... VOILA!! my crazy-stimulating-coffee is ready.

OLA?!

Great movie, a cup of hot chocolate, and a bag of pop corn will make my days!!

A mysterious dude in a hood, I just love the fact that he's a FRENGERS!!!

 "Mu-Wa-Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha-Ha-Haaah!!!"

 So, just like many other uptown civilian that have a great inclination to what-so-they-called the constructed consumptive life style, I spent my Saturday night by going out to the movie. It was a really small theater. No one seem like to come here. It was just sooooo emptyyyy theater with only three shows. I forgot what the other two shows, since I instantly fell in love with this movie; "Megamind!"

Then I bought the ticket and buy pop corn and I entered the theater. I was thrilled with the idea of seeing this movie as I already watched the trailer. So, I sat right behind this dude. He was alone and reading a book. I can barely saw his face, but what made me  curious is he had the snow brigade ringtone for his cell, GYYYAAA!! I've never heard anyone other than me who ever had MEW ringtone.. So, to whomever he talked from his cell, I just glad that there is one a frengers fellow sit right in front of me that night.

About the movie? well, nothing that I can say beside that Megamind reminded me so much to Squidward! Yeah, they are both blue and pretentious and the wrong guy who are just at the wrong time. No matter what the bad things that they do, all they try to do is only to survive from the cruel society. It is apparently true that bad guy is not coming naturally because they were born with bad characteristic, but rather that the environment has made them so.

culinary of the dayy!! yummm.. yummm..

This is what I call a happy life (like I know another kind of life, sigh Y__Y)

This is my mom's best cook ever, maybe yet..

I don't know how or what kind of stuff that she put in this spicy beef stew, but I know it tastes ssoooo gooodddd!! I like the hot pepper flavor mixed with the sweet taste of the soy sauce. Ohhh, how I love having a mom. I pity my future kids as I can't cook as good as this. I can barely process any food, actually lolzzzz