VEG ME

I think I wanna change some things in my life, this is just the right point to make a decision.
I want to be more healthy. I want to be a vegetarian from now on.
Why?
Here are some good reasons I found randomly from the internet:

1. Cut the fat. While meat provides a lot of protein, it also provides a ton of fat. Which means that by cutting out meat, you’ll be cutting out a lot of bad fat, and replacing it with things that are probably not only lower in fat, but that contain some good fats. This greatly reduces your risk of heart disease, and in fact numerous studies have shown that vegetarians tend to have a lower risk of heart disease, as well as hypertension, diabetes, cancer and other diseases.
2. Less food poisoning. Food poisoning gets millions of people each year — and many of them from meat, which is a good breeding ground for harmful bacteria, especially if not stored, prepared or cooked exactly right.
3. Reduce the suffering. You probably don’t want to hear about the horrific treatment of animals that are raised for food, even before they are slaughtered for our benefit. But suffice it to say, there are great amounts of suffering involved, and by cutting out meat, you are reducing your involvement in that. 
4. Help the environment. There are actually numerous ways that the meat industry harms the environment, from a waste of our resources (animals raised for food eat enough grain to feed the world), to a waste of fuel, to the pollution caused by their waste matter, and much more. 
5. Help your weight loss. It’s possible to be vegetarian and eat very unhealthy foods, including Coke and fries and fried stuff and pizza and chips. But it’s much more difficult. Studies repeatedly show that vegetarians are slimmer and are less likely to be obese than meat eaters. If you’re trying to lose weight, being a vegetarian can be a good part of your program.
6. Get more nutrition. In general (though not necessarily), vegetarians replace meat with more nutritious foods, such as fruits, vegetables, beans, whole grains, and so on. If you do that, you will be getting more of the nutrients your body needs, giving you better health, less illness, and more energy.

There are different types of vegetarians:

1. Flexitarian
Flexitarians are also known as semi–vegetarians and occasionally eat meat. 
2. Pesci–vegetarian
Pesci–vegetarians eat fish, dairy, and eggs but don't eat meat or poultry.
3. Lacto–ovo vegetarian
Lacto–ovo vegetarians don't eat meat, but do eat eggs and dairy products (ovo means eggs and lacto means dairy).
4. Lacto vegetarian
Lacto vegetarians don't eat meat, but do eat dairy products. This is the most common type of vegetarian diet.
5. Ovo vegetarian
Ovo vegetarians don't eat meat but do eat eggs.
6. Vegan
Vegans avoid eating any animal products. They don't eat any meat products, milk, cheese, eggs, honey, or gelatin. Many vegans choose not to wear clothes containing animal products, such as leather, wool, or silk, or wear makeup tested on animals.

Well, to me, pesci vegetarian maybe will fit in :D

Law of Giving and Taking

Lately, I believe relationship among people can only happen based on solid mutual interests.

You have something on you, others see it, others want it, then they will come closer to get you. On the other hand, if you have nothing to offer, then you are doomed.

Experiences taught me so much about this universe rule. Especially one happened yesterday night.

Again and again such proof revealed itself right in front of my eyes.

Nothing's called friendship or love. All is about give and take benefits on the name of mutual interests.

No need to discuss about friendship or any other complex relationship. Let us just talk about love. In love relationship, obviously people perform what I so called give and take benefits.

When you see a guy, you will take in some credits such as, he's nice, good looking, caring, and funny. Those are credits you need for you. Then, that guy also see same on you.

On society, each person will be labeled with benefits tags above his or her head.

Once you see that description match what you need, then you will make your move to approach the target and start to barter benefits.

Sigh... that's life.

self affirmation

 I once read (somewhere randomly):

"Affirmations are positive statements that describe a desired situation, and which are repeated many times, in order to impress the subconscious mind and trigger it into positive action."

After reading that, one question arose from my stubborn head, why would people keep on promising to improve themselves with such positive statements while they always fall short? 

Maybe the answer is because we, as human being, need hopes in order to continue living.

The point in doing self affirmation is to give hope for ourselves so that we can keep on believing someday in the future we can live in better life.

Let's face it, what make us survive this life when we already know that life's bitch? HOPE! We are hoping that things will change. We pray for good things will happen. 

Though in the post process after that affirming, most of us will fall short from our commitment.  But it doesn't matter. What matter is we try to make it happen.

So, after all those blah blah words, here goes my resolutions as my self affirmation (within a year):

1. I will explore my spiritual life. So that I will understand more about me (the only God mystery I hardly understand.)

2. I will loose weight. There will be no foods after 6pm.

3. I will grow my hairs.

4. I will write more. I will improve my quality.

5. I will look for and finally get scholarship in economics, or history, or social studies.

and the list will keep on going..

 

IN BEING ALICE: when the door open both ways

For those who ever walked with me into doors with the PULL/PUSH signs must know my bad habit. It is IGNORANCE! Yeah, I've never take much attention to those signs and my friends complaint me most of the time.

Ok, here is my pleading sentences: who cares?

I meant, first of all, tell me who's to say what BAD HABIT is?

Before we jump into that matter, let's discuss about the word BAD itself. What is bad? Who can defines something is bad or something is good? To what standard bad or not bad is?

Since we were kids, we've been told some things are bad some things are good,we need to do this we don't do that. And what for? To please others!

Back to the doors sign, the more I think, the more I realize that I will not change my habit. Why? Because, I don't need to please others by submitting to such rules. Yeah, except there's someone's on the other side of the door, well I will maybe follow what the sign tell me :D

The point is, what we read on the door sign is not always what we're meant to do. Sometimes, the door still can be opened both ways, no matter what the sign is.

It's all about how you feel about the concept of comfortableness, hehe.. Oh, yeah, in other words, I AM SO STUBBORN :p

Metaphorical talking

I know, for some people who are now reading this writing, I'm being cryptically but what i was trying to say is to understand this metaphor in the bigger scope. I meant, let us see life as DOORS.

Yeah, living my life, I've been always thinking myself as Alice in the Wonderland. Life is such big mystery to me. There are many doors ahead of me. All I need to do is to choose which doors should I get into. And it is not all about what's behind the door which is important, it is all about how I find my way to open it.

This Alice has fat thighs, yeah very looks alike me :D

You know, in the story of Alice, she needs to shrink in or up in order to adjust herself to get in doors, right? And it is same, no matter you pull or push the door, all you do is in order to fit in.

And once Alice enters those doors, she finds many different adventure.

My point is, life is all about the process of learning. You gotta find out how to open your chances. And while you working on it, no one can tell you are wrong as long as you believe in what you do.

Once the doors open, you have FUN! If you see good things behind the doors, then that's a bonus for you, but if it is not, then it is only a chance for you to have some more fun. Or even worse, when the doors are locked, it will give you opportunities to find better door :D

Peace OUT!!!

SKEPTICAL IS NEEDED, INTO WHAT EXTENT?!

Tomorrow is going to be my first day to enter the real editorial world. My feeling now? Err.. I don't feel anything, honestly.

Well, the editorial desk is such a big mystery for me, even it's like a wonderland to me. It is a place where all of the existence are needed to be questioned, me, is no exception.

For all these times, to be a journalist (hoping to be!), I trained myself to be skeptical, but in a professional way. Because, we need to admit, there are some skeptics that turn to be so annoying. They seem to be always get around you and bug you with endless questions. Really hate that.

Okay, so about this professional skepticism, I do believe that people lie to us all the time. Even those who are so called the honesest of the honest.

Why?

Why do people lie? Because, lie is necessity. It is one of human's natural weapon to be able to survive.

However, lying is bad, or so we are told again and again since we were kids.

People need to lie to escape from being hurt. Really? Yeah, truths awfully hurt and no one would wish to deal with that.

To be hurt means you'll not manage to survive, thus, people lie. Because human naturally can not stand huredt.

But, are you sure that lie can save us from misery? I don't think so. As once we lie, we will not be able to stop it. It will gets piled up and up until it takes over everything.

Keep on hiding truths so you will full of secrets and you feel like you’re going to burst out.

So, back to my skepticism training, all of those facts mentioned above just point out what I intend to say. People are not innocent. They all have motives. And my duty as a journalist (to be) is to reveal those icebergs.

But, to what extent we need to be skeptical, the answer is as far as we get what we want to hear. Again, truths are made. We believe what we want to believe. After all, how do we measure truth?

Gua butuh meja!!

Daddy, how was I born?

Well son Your Mom and I first got together in a chatroom on Yahoo. Then I set up a date via email with your Mom and we met at a cybercafe. We sneaked into a secluded room, and googled each other. There your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive. As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had used a firewall, and since it was too late to hit the delete button, nine months later a little Pop-Up appeared that said: ‘You got Male!’

 

as cited from a friend's tumblr :D

Broken hearted song playlist

1. Green Day-Wake me up when September ends
2. Lisa Loeb-Stay
3. Yeah Yeah Yeahs-Cheated hearts
4. Radiohead-All I need
5. Beyonce-Broken hearted girl 
6. Lifehouse-Broken
7. Sia-Breath me
8. Eisley-Brightly wound
9. Coldplay-The scientist
10. Coldplay-Warning sign
11. Coldplay-Amsterdam
12. Coldplay-In my place
13. Coldplay-Sparks
14. Coldplay-Trouble
15. Coldplay-Shiver
16. Band of Horses-No ones gonna love you
17. Relient K-Forget and not slow down
18. Lemar-What about love
19. Lemar-Time to grow
20. The Beatles-I'm so tired
21. Noah and the Whales-My broken heart
22. Death Cab for Cutie-Why I cry
23. Death Cab for Cutie-Someday you will be loved
24. The Script-Breakeven
25. Jimmy eat the World-Pain
26. The Smiths-Last night I dreamt that somebody loved me
27. La Roux-Cover my eyes
28. Motion City Soundtrack-Broken heart
29. Oasis-Don't go away
30. MEW-Paper cuts

"Someday You Will Be Loved"

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret Cause each broken heart will eventually mend As the blood runs red down the needle and thread Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved Like you never have known The memories of me Will seem more like bad dreams Just a series of blurs Like I never occurred Someday you will be loved

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep And everytime tears roll down your cheeks But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet Someday you will be loved

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Ini adalah lagu ter e'e di awal bulan ini! Semuanya persis seperti apa yang diucapkannya.

Di setiap putus cinta, sang "pemutus" selalu bersikap seolah-olah dia peduli dengan kebahagiaan yang "terputuskan". Tapi sebenarnya tidak. Thanks for Ben Gibbard to point it out in his song.

Wishing u a happy life... You'll get a better man for you... dan ratusan klise sampah lainnya yang terucap layaknya sebuah standard operasional kata-kata putus yang meng-global.

Itu semua hanya untuk menyembunyikan rasa bersalahnya, atau ketidakpedulian, entahlah.. i'm not a jerk-mind-reader. Oh GOD, it hurts!!

Never wonder land

Photo by: fanpop.com

“Kau kekanak-kanakkan!”

“Cerewet! Selalu ingin tahu! Urusi saja urusanmu sendiri.”

 “Aku lelah. Kapan kau mau cari kerja untuk menafkahi aku dan anak-anakmu?”

“Kalau kau lapar, kau bisa jual kucing atau kelincimu  yang tak berguna itu.”

“Berhenti bermain-main. Kita tidak sama lagi seperti dulu.”

“Tapi perasaanmu selalu berubah! Sebentar bahagia, sebentar marah-marah.”

“Tapi aku tetap sama, mencintaimu apa adanya.”

“Walaupun aku tetap menemuinya?”

“Toh dia sudah nenek renta. Aku tak akan khawatir.”

“Aku mencintaimu, Alice.”

“Aku mencintaimu, Peter.”

Made complicated

Home alone. All of my family went out of town.

Tonite is Iedul Fitri night. If it is me several years ago, I will surely celebrate it with all of family instead of being alone in my room writing on my blog.. and sleep

But now all are changed. I don't know what has happened in me or what has happened with the value of holidays, I just feel it's fine to be completely alone in this kind of night.

I'm not even complaining when I need to take care the house.

What makes me sad is only what my babyblue said to me: "I feel sad for you bb, it's not because that you're alone or what, it's because I feel that you don't celebrate it."

STAB!!

I do celebrate it. In my own way. Yeah.. at least that's what I'm believing.

Come on, I've been striving to hold all of my desires for about almost 30 days, and when it's all over I'm not celebrating it?? What am I? A nuts?!

This is the problem with our society.

Things are just made complicated. Why couldn't we live as what our heart says? If we like it take it if not then don't.

To me, life's so simple. Choices are only yes or no.

Apparently, this is my curse yet my bless. I can always take fast move whenever urgent things happen, but most of the time, my move is not good ones so I need to rewind it over and over again.

This actually reflects on my writing here. It doesn't written smoothly.

Sorry for that, I keep on learning XD


HAPPY IED MUBARAK!!

Anxiety

Photo by: Mari Z on Flickr

One of my friend, Indriani last nite texted me on facebook. She asked me to proofread her blog writing.

And I was like; Whatttt???!! Who?? Me?!! No way, Jose!!

indri's good at writing actually. Even wayyyy better than me. It's all because that she has been a journalist for about a year ago besides she's an active blogger.

But last nite, to my surprise, she asked me to edit her writing. Well then I found out why she asked me to do that, it's all because she wrote it in English.

English is one of Indri's anxiety's source. Oh my!! Who's not?

She feels her English is imperfect.

I wonder why, how on earth a girl like Indri can be so worried about things in her life as I know her, she is a carefree girl and always happy go lucky. She's brave and very extrovert.

But then I realize, nobody's perfect. All have their own anxiety over things they feel they are not good at.

And that's why I believe, we are all unique. God himself has created us in such a way so we can be the winner of our own life to  give meaning of life God has given to us.

Well, Indri... you do really need to get use writing in neglish :p

Viva la stalk!!

Stalking is better than studying

Hari ini, seharusnya saya belajar untuk tes kompre nanti.

Tapi, lihat apa yang saya lakukan?

morning face for the need of study!

Saya malah sibuk stalking kakak perempuan salah seorang kawan saya.

Well, okay, I know it’s impolite to unknowingly peeking on someone else’s life but I’m extremely needing a distraction, or an inspiration, whatever. I wanted to know what does she have that I don’t.

Menelisik soal kehidupan wanita ini sangat menarik. Bagi saya, dia adalah representasi wanita modern saat ini, independen, dan tahu apa yang dimauinya.

Well, apapun pendapat saya soal si wanita ini, yang paling penting dan harus disoroti di sini adalah betapa mudahnya bagi saya, di jaman sekarang ini, untuk menguntit kehidupan pribadi seseorang. Hanya melalui facebook, twitter, dan blog seseorang, saya bisa tahu apa saja soal orang itu. Oh, betapa langkanya privasi saat ini ya?

Saya jadi berpikir, apakah teknologi benar-benar membawa kebaikan bagi kemaslahatan umat manusia di dunia? To me, technology does given chances to compare my personal qualities with others, facts I found sometimes hurt but in a fun way.

For you, the answer lays deep down in your mind because I’m completely sure that you guys must've experienced the same thing with me. But we’re human being, it’s normal to have some insecurities, and it’s so normal to have the need to be compared with, only to find that you also have something more.

The Beast!

Chairil Anwar portrait. Photo: fataranaku.blogspot.com

Chairil Anwar adalah legenda sastra di negeri Indonesia.

Oke, karena saya ingin mengenlakan sang pujangga pada dunia, saya akan menulis dalam bahasa universal :D

Chairil Anwar is Indonesia foremost poet. He was born in Medan, July, 26, 1922. It is the same year when Jack Kourac was born. Yeah, maybe those who have free spirit were born in 20s :D

His parents got divorced and he moved to Jakarta after finishing high school.

The young Chairil Anwar get inspired by the work of W.H. Auden, Steinbeck, Ernest Hemingway, Nitsche, and many more.

It's not only literature that got this young poet, he also known for his particular interest to women. In some of his work, there are several girls mentioned such as Ida, Sri Ayati, Gadis Rasyid, Mirat, dan Roosmeini, but finally he married Hapsah. However, their marriage could not last long. It was only 7 months. Not so long after that, he died.

During his life, he created many of beautiful poems such as AKU and KRAWANG-BEKASI.

Chairil Anwar, died too young but it's fine so he would not feel sorrow more longer. Rest in peace Binatang Jalang. May your soul meet the 27 club :D

Penting! Tips Agar Tidak Haus Saat Puasa.

1. Saat sahur, usahakan tidak makan makanan berlemak, berminyak, atau bersantan. Makanan berminyak akan menimbulkan panas lebih di kerongkongan.

Selain itu harga minyak mahal cuy! Jadi tidak dianjurkan buka dengan minyak :D



2. Makan sayuran berkuah bening saat sahur. Selain segar dan tidak menimbulkan panas, kandungan airnya tinggi serta memberi banyak asupan vitamin yang baik untuk kebugaran tubuh.

Selain itu, sayuran mengandung serat yang lama dicerna oleh tubuh. Sehingga, rasa kenyang berlangsung lebih lama.

Harganyapun biasanya lebih murah dibanding daging-dagingan! Jadi, bagi siapa saja yang uang makannya belum turun, bisa makan dengan sayur sebanyak-banyaknya.

3. Jangan terlalu banyak meminum teh manis. Sebab, akan memicu produksi urin yang lebih dari biasanya.

Kalau lihat saya yang manis, boleh ajaaaa... muwahahahaha!

4. Mulailah berbuka puasa dengan minuman hangat untuk menghindari radang tenggorokan. Kalau langsung minum air dingin, saluran pencernaan akan ‘kaget’.

Oo.. saluran pencernaan bisa kaget juga ya? Baru tau saya.. Lain kali buka pake mercon ah, biar seru! hihi..

Stranger In My Own Home

Sudah tiga bulan aku tinggal sendiri.

Di sebuah kamar kosan kecil berukuran 3 kali 4 aku memulai hidup baruku. Berteman dengan orang-orang baru.
Dan kali ini, adalah kepulanganku yang ketiga ke rumah Ibu di Bandung.
Entah bagaimana, tiba-tiba aku merasa asing di rumah ini.
Aku merasa aku seharusnya tak ada di sini.

Semua sudah berubah.

Rumah Ibu terasa sangat bersih dan kamar-kamar jadi terlampau harum. Barang-barang bebas debu dan super kilap hingga aku takut kalau-kalau aku meninggalkan bekas jari setiap menyentuhnya.
Hanya dalam waktu tiga bulan, sehari di rumah ini membuatku bosan setengah mati.
Enthalah..

Mungkin aku ini anak yang paling tak berhati.

Tapi sumpah mati aku jemu dengan omelan Ibu pada Lilis, pembantu kami di rumah. Pada bisikan-bisikan serunya soal gosip para tetanggateranyarpadaku.
Aku muak dengan keluhan-keluhan kedua kakakku soal sakit ini itu yangdirasakannya.

Aku JENGAH!!

Ibu, maafkan aku karena JEMU. Aku tahu aku tak tahu malu. Tapi sungguh, hatiku sudah beku.

CABUTTT!!!

Ini adalah perjalananku yang pertama naik kereta, pulang kampung bersama seorang teman.
Namanya Panji.
Kami telah merencanakan perjalanan ini sejak seminggu yang lalu.
Orang-orang tahu aku bukan tipe pemberani yang punya nyali untuk membolos dari apapun.

Bahkan kakakkupun bertanya begini saat aku tiba-tiba mengabarinya aku akan pulang Hari ini:
Mbak Kris: “Maneh beneran arep pulang? Libur gitu? Kok Kamis-Kamis mulih?”
(Kamu beneran mau pulang? Libur gitu? Kok hari Kamis pulang?)
Aku: “Enggak. Aku mbolos!”
Mbak Kris: “Lah, numben wani!”
(Lah, numben berani!)

Yah, begitulah..
Keluargaku saja tahu betapa pengecutnya aku.
Tapi, aku punya alasan yang super kuat mengapa aku nekat ingin kabur ke Bandung.
Pertama, dan yang paling kuat adalah: SAYA TIDAK SUKA KELAS TV!!
Saya muak dengan ketidakpastian saat belajar dengan orang-orang dari TV. Sudah berkali-kali, saya dan kawan-kawan dikecewakan oleh jadwal-jadwal tak tentu. Belum lagi ulasan-ulasan dangkal soal penyombongan diri karir orang-orang tertentu.
Maaf, bukannya saya sok-sok-an protes atau apa, tapi saya sudah FED UP!!
Kedua, saya kangen dengan orang-orang yang saya cintai: ibu dan kawan-kawan lama saya.
Ketiga, saya butuh waktu untuk istirahat.
Keempat, saya ingin refreshing. Melupakan hal-hal buruk di Jakarta.

Oke, kembali ke kronologis membolos saya yang melibatkan KEBERANIAN itu.
Jadi, pada hari Kamis, saya dan Panji sudah sepakat untuk segera ke Stasiun Gambir tepat pukul 3.
Rencana sudah tersusun rapih. Tiket kereta api bisnis pp Jakarta-Bandung yang kami pesan kemarin sudah aman di dompet saya. Barang bawaanpun sudah siap.
Seperti biasa, orang-orang TV datang terlambat. Pukul 11 mereka baru masuk kelas. Memberi feedback seadanya soal pengambilan gambar reportase kami pada hari sebelumnya dan dengan gampangnya menyuruk kami keluar lagi untuk mengambil gambar-gambar yang kurang.
Karena dari awal kami sudah tidak suka, maka, tak satu kelompokpun yang rela beranjak.
Kami makanpun makan siang. Lalu main komputer sepuasnya.
Menjelang pukul 3, Panji memberi isyarat padaku untuk cabut dari kelas. Akupun segera menyambar ransel dan berpamitan pada satu dua orang yang cukup dekat denganku.

Kamipun setengah berlari menuruni tangga menuju pintu keluar.
Sial!
Tepat di depan pintu keluar, Sang Maestro sedang duduk santai menghisap rokok sambil mengobrol dengan seorang teman kami.
Melihat kami berdua keluar membawa tas, Sang Maestro menanyai kami mau pergi ke mana.
Kami bilang kami mau pulang.
Maestro melarang kami, tanggung, katanya. Tunggu sebentar lagi.
Dia sama sekali tak tahu, dalam sejarahnya yang panjang, kereta tak pernah mau menunggu dua siswa pembolos seperti kami.
Kamipun duduk tak tenang sambil sesekali mengecek jam tangan seolah dengan berbuat begitu waktu akan membeku.

Akhirnya, setelah penantian yang gelisah, orang-orang TV yang tadi pergi kembali, kali ini, entah mengapa, jumlah mereka berlipat ganda.
Tanpa menunggu lama, Panji segera beraksi.
Dia minta ijin untuk sembahyang. Aku, yang saraf kepekaannya tumpul malah menimpali agar kami sembahyang di SANA saja. Setelah momen kaku beberapa detik, aku meralat ucapanku: di atas saja! Iya, di sana!

Akhirnya kami berhasil LOLOS! Lari, pontang-panting ke luar. Naik bajaj, turun Gambir, membeli makan dan minum seadanya lalu mengirim pesan dan beberapa foto tentang kegemilangan kami pada kawan2 yang masih terjebak di dalam kelas bersama MEREKA! Haha!

Terinspirasi dari salah seorang teman yang menulis di blog-nya tentang SURAT CINTA yang dilayangkan padanya oleh beberapa teman SUSDAPE (Kursus Dasar Pewarta), saya juga ingin melakukan hal yang sama.
Surat cinta yang dimaksud di sini adalah feed back dari teman-teman yang telah bersama-sama mengikuti SUSDAPE selama hampir tiga bulan.

Saya mendapat 7 kertas feedback. Berikut isi surat tersebut dan pembelaan diri saya:
1. Aku suka kamu karena: LUCU DAN PINTAR
Aku harap kamu: JANGAN MINDER

Saya memang lucu tapi tidak pintar. Dan sering tidak pede, jadi terkesan minder.
Oke, setelah ini, mudah2an saya jadi lebih percaya dengan diri saya sendiri!
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2. Aku suka kamu karena:BAIK, LUCU DAN PINTAR SERTA PANTANG MENYERAH
Aku harap kamu: DAPAT MELIHAT ORANG LAIN SECARA LEBIH DALAM DAN DEKAT AGAR TIDAK TERJADI SALAH PAHAM, DAN JANGAN HANYA IKUTI KATA ORANG LAIN

Saya, pantang menyerah??
Saya baru tahu! Hehe..

Soal melihat orang secara mendalam dan menngikuti kata orang lain.. saya tahu betul apa yang saya lakukan. Saya 25 tahun dan bisa memutuskan siapa-siapa yang patut saya dengar dan abaikan. Jadi, untuk sementara, harapan itu mungkin belum bisa saya wujudkan :p
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3. Aku suka kamu karena: KAMU SERU, KEADAAN JADI RAME KLO ADA KAMU
Aku harap kamu: TETEP JADI IDA YANG PERIANG YA!

Wah! Saya merasa diri saya seperti petasan membaca feedback yang ini, SERU dan RAME!
Insy. Saya akan tetap riang!
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4. Aku suka kamu karena: BAIK HATI, PEMAAF, HUMORIS, APA ADANYA
Aku harap kamu: KERENLAH...

Hihi.. saya tersipu2 sendiri membaca feedback ini, rasanya saya sangat sempurna bak malaikat tanpa cela 
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5. Aku suka kamu karena:
-SELERA LAGUNYA OKE (BACA: SAMA)
-RAME
-BAIK, LEMBUT
Aku harap kamu:
-LEBIH PEDE
-LEBIH MANDIRI

Ooh, bahagianya! Baru pertama kali ada orang yang mengatakan selera musik saya oke.
Selama ini teman-teman saya menyebut selera musik saya AJAIB dan tak masuk akal, hihi..

Ya, saya memang merasa kurang mandiri. Kutukan anak bungsu -___-!
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6. Aku suka kamu karena:
-KAMU ORANGNYA PERIANG
-POSITIVE THINKING BANGET
Aku harap kamu:
-BISA LEBIH INDEPENDEN DALAM MENGAMBIL SIKAP
-LEBIH PERCAYA SAMA KEMAMPUAN LUAR BIASA YANG KAMU PUNYA

I’m not a saint. Terkadang pikiran-pikiran buruk menghampiri isi kepala. Hanya saja, saya tidak mungkin memberi porsi lebih dari energi saya untuk terus bergelut dengan itu.

Kemampuan luar biasa? What is that, I wonder??? Hehe..
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7. Aku suka kamu karena: BAIK HATI, TIDAK SOMBONG, RAJIN DAN TIDAK PELIT.. BETUL?
Aku harap kamu: JANGAN SERING KHAWATIR DA! SEMUA BISA DIOBROLKAN.. SPT GSM WAE..

Sering khawatir???
Hihi.. yeah, sulit untuk tidak khawatir di lingkungan-lingkungan baru, Kawan. Tapi oke, I’ll cope with that :D

World Class Hero: CHIBI MARUKO

I recently re-watched the Japanese dorama series: CHIBI MARUKO!

And suddenly, I find there are many similarities between the little me and this 9 years old Maruko. Even up till now, I still feel that I'm lazy.

Well, to be quiet hones, I'm lazy, disorganized and used to be late for school.

I used to avoid homework and chores.

The only different is maybe, Maruko has dotting grand Pa, while me, I have a very strict grand Pa who stick to his Javanese cultural values. Oh, writing this making me miss him :(

Nevertheless, I'm also a well-meaning girl who tries to do good *wink!wink!*

Maruko is indeed can be included to be one of my world class heroes, because she's true. Even if she sometimes does silly things, she never pretends to be someone else. And i really want to do that.

It's hard to be our selves sometimes.

HATRED

HATRED is defined as a severe dislike.


It synonyms with words which have negative connotation such as: antagonism, antipathy, bitterness, coldness, disapproval, disgust, envy, grudge, hard feelings, hate, horror, loathing, prejudice, revenge, scorn, spite, and venom.


Hatred is infectious. It spreads like diseases. When it does, it can result in extreme behavior such as violence, murder, war.


In psychoanalysis, Sigmund Freud defined HATE as an ego state that wishes to destroy the source of its unhappiness.


Hate is the two eyed blade, it can give relieve when we can wipe out the source of our happiness. However, it can be very dangerous when we abuse it.


I don't like to hate, but somehow I can't escape from that feeling.


Many things can chain me to hatred. For example is people around me.


When I'm in an environment that make me impossible to escape that feeling, I feel helpless. At first, people around me seems to be very supportive but at last I realize that I was dragged deeper and deeper to the swirl of hate.


I just want PEACE in my mind, heart, and soul.


So people, please help me to find one. Being hated or hating isn't cool! What are we? A group of high-school-ers?